July 8th, 2015
I'm trying to forget just how cruel and vile people have been to us not only for a year but very intensely so,for past three weeks or so,it's a very long story,but people have lied about my husband and I both very unwell and disabled and can be verified!the things they have done!people old enough to know better would make your hair stand on end!a sample taster is this on our moving day( we had to move as bullied out by flat owners,who didn't want renters) they" including the ex landlord,robbed trespassed and assaulted my husband,they the other flat owners( presumed ly because they had been lied too by someone"can they really be that vile?????) stopped our removal men from taking our last load of stuff which comprised of all my disability aids,and many many needed things,the landlord took the key off the removal men,although he KNEW we were sending someone back to clean the flat,and needed keys to do this,he followed the removal men to our new address and forced entry and assaulted my husband and I heard every word of his temper and vile accusations!and saw him through the window!he fled when I shouted " what the hell is going on!!!The management and him,the management. Being the flat owners then threw out all our stuff,including my dead mom in laws gift to my husband,she died a month or two ago,when dad in law was having a liver transplant,we would speak to her on the phone in the hospice,these people then called also the income support line,to try and get me in further trouble,so they could once again,make us look like something we are not,but they certainly are,I paint because I enjoy it,they have given me stomach ulcers,which have bled for two weeks now,and gastro paresis caused by having to take pain meds because I havnt had my disability items!so they know a lot about EDS and POTS, do they,do they know five of my friends died from it all young people the week before they did such awful things to us ????????Do they know the landlord assaulted my husband when he's sick and disabled and all can be proven,I have been beside myself with anger since June the 15 the that such slimey old liars could do such a thing to us ,and here is the rub, and get away with it !!!!!!!!Ok the landlord isn't as old as the management ,but such lies they all tell,even creeping round taking my photograph on the odd occasion when I went out in my wheelchair!now that's sick!
February 17th, 2015
ballet fairies artfairy paintings
I hope you like my gallery on fairy paintings,I am only just adding the paintings into a gallery and trying to become more techy,I'm not getting very far!
But encouraged by my dear friend Laura in the USA I am trying,please share my paintings and keep a careful eye out you may just see a fairy one day,especially if you buy a card ,print or cushion !!
September 12th, 2013
I must admit I only seem to blog when feeling sorry for myself,it's a strange concept to blog"I know I should blog when I feel upbeat and optimistic but lately life has been full of struggles again it seems and I know that for many people.I have had to use a few pain killers more and they have the side effect of making me depressed or perhaps making me realise what makes me sad,I am amused I can still as an artist as a dancer hide from the public my misery and folks will say what a cheerful painting,when inside Im tormented,sometimes.
So what torments me?mostly my inability to be mobile and being in pain, but I've also lost an awful lot of friends who have turned away for various reasons to long to go into here but in the main if I was still fit and healthy I would be fun to be around,I think they think!As a dancer I had one life, for me it is before and after my two lives bare no relationship to each other,as I have to rest" so much little things mean a great deal and when people don't do what I hoped they would or they told me they would or used to do, and that's mostly talk to me! I feel very lonely and downcast
Im grateful for many many things in my life and Im so grateful folks talk to me about my painting,because with out that my life would be very dull indeed, thank you for looking, take care
May 5th, 2013
At Last after waiting for many years and months I saw the guru medicine world expert in my collagen disorder,the journey was an ordeal and the long list of diagnosis he gave me seemed a lot,plus he wants me to be in hospital a while,this comes when we found that not many have understood my pain etc and indeed those that should of didnt!My mom in law has been unwell too,and fortunately she is quite a bit better..... the last two months have taken their toll,just when things look brighter they plunge down again,Ive lost many personal friends and mostly due in some part to them not understanding perhaps my POTS (look it up?) my BP will go to 250 if I get upset or distressed and this is not without my feeling like I will explode!I make no excuse for my behaviour,I have tried hard to be a decent person,but recently feel overwhelmed with some challenges I face,even finding suitable living space seems so hard,this picture,is of an old hay loft my husband and I lived in when he first was with me,we had dodgy electrics,and a floor which went thru to garages under neath........Im pretty confused right now,our dear very spoilt Limey cat has been made cranky by a baby stray that turned up,facially the same as Limey,now called Henry......our living accomodation is unsuitable the windows only open about an inch and its a basement flat,which hurts me to get out of,Im not grumbling as such just distressed as this was the nearest I could get to live by my son......Im finding it hard to paint hard to function,so much wasted time,so much poor health care from our genetic disorder......so much heel dragging and then paying privately,and so wrecked health for no reason!The world seems a little greedy crazed right now,but its refreshing to chat with my painting buddies who fill my days with hope and pleasure and company,thank you for reading my mini moan,and enjoy your painting all!!
February 27th, 2012
I wasnt it a very good mood today anyway,too much poor health and lack of money,plus I feel lonely frequently,as most days except for paint,Im in bed,all day and night...folks like my fairies and for that Im grateful.... but I want folks to like"other stuff I do....Ok sometimes they have,but feel particularly hurt today,maybe for the first time,because on tagging" a brand new friend on face book as Tudor Lady,"she hated it so much she removed it from her wall,whilst keeping all my fairy type paintings!A small thing,for most people,but I kind of like the way the Tudor lady is not perfect," and so she has a beauty for her not being perfect....Im not perfect,not do I want to just paint perfect things" go get a machine print out.....and so my work"" in the space of 2 hours went from being exquisite,too not even fit to be on someone s wall... my friends and family often want me to be perfect too,well hey Im not.... but at least I try,when many may of given up,sorry you found Tudor lady not beautiful enough,but I like her!:)So if you like my art buy it pls,because due to ill health sometimes,its hard to make ends meet,if you dont like it...... dont insult me by only liking my fairies"its the same broken"
hand that produces it all,self taught,because,I can no longer do anything else.... my art is my friend....
December 24th, 2011
Well here we are folks,whatever your beliefs,many folks will celebrate this day and the forth coming,and I will celebrate it with JOY in my heart,becos despite hardly seeing my only son,and now he cant make it for Christmas either,I have ART,my husband and my cat,and not least my good art loving friends.....you bring me JOY every day....every day you have come and looked at my art,when my life is full often of not much else,Ive had my art,and you...your encouragement...often my art,is a lil rushed,frequently have run out of money to have good canvas,s for my increasing habit..and it is,Im addicted!!Most of you know I have big health issues,my right thumb has also been damaged and so to paint,is in itself a miracle as my thumb doesnt bend to grip hardly.........but Im giddy that now,I have been painting for about a year,initially painting well....perhaps to my surprise,but getting more and more excited and at times frantic thru the year to express myself....How do I thank you?do I give you a day off from my pictures?I only have 2 tiny canvas boards to see me thru to new year,oh and some watercolour paper....so will need to be inventive...Thank you folks,you have given me heart,Joy ,friendship and happiness,I can honestly say,I Love you for that,so have an excellent Christmas, or holiday or both,you deserve it!
November 29th, 2011
Every Year who we see at Christmas dwindles... this year will be just me and other half and cat,my art is my family,my art fills the gaps"they are expensive family members..needing much space and attention!!Always wanted a big family,but thankful for my son,who is the apple of my eye... as Im now mostly bedridden,and my other friends have families,I dont really get any attention from them,in fact I think they see me as a bit of a demanding bad tempered old croc.... so its me,and our gorgeous cat and sick and disabled other half,he tries hard,but gets tired looking after me,maybe father Christmas will bring new folks and old into our lives for just enough time to make me feel ok,but if not,well there is my thick white paint!!!My thick white paint,will be encouraged to stay a while and linger so I can enjoy its beauty,before it goes on its adventure...so folks say Hello at Christmas,we know how art is balm to the soul,but you too could be balm to someone elses soul this Christmas,and if folk seem cranky,maybe try and forgive them,as indeed even the POW came into folks homes for Christmas,... so what ever you call it...Happy holiday or whatever,the Christian message and all religions should be"Peace on Earth" If you feel good...pass it on to someone who maybe doesnt,instead of running away from them,now thats a gift worth having.
September 16th, 2011
Imdiagnosed for now with EDS111,I have to go see Prof Grahame to find out exactly whats what,ironically I feel to sore and tired!Ive suffered my whole life with health issues,and now wayyyyyyyyyyyyy to late,some sort of diagnosis,at last....lately my body has been rapidly getting more imobile and sore,My right thumb wont bend now and grasp,and the bank,didnt believe my signature,which has caused problems,have just started to paint,after a lil while not doing it,and I do so Love to paint,at least,if I cant write,I can still paint somewhat,(new brushes would now help!!)I have to fight the cat for the window seat,he won today,and now sleeps...... there is an idea!! ZZZZzzz
June 4th, 2011
I must admit lately,Im hating Saturdays,unsure if this is because as a former dance person,Saturday,was always a busy day, sit clued to the laptop,hoping someone bought a card or print,and if they dont,I fall into an arty deep depression!Im used to being good at what I do,and now due to health,I cant dance anymore,so finding painting suddenly at the beginning of the year,and winning much in the way of compliments and sales went to my head,so now its a lil too quiet for my liking,I sit here and mope,instead of sending me a birthday card,feel free to buy one friends of mine,I would like that better!There its said,and I feel silly,Im too young too have nothing to do in life,and too old and sore,to do much other than paint,but actually,not sure if can afford this for that much longer,I am very competitive,and hope on my birthday,I will be kind to myself,many years ago,my mum thought my art was good,praise indeed from her,as they were not a family who dished out praise!now hardly any family,and need my art to survive,emotionally,pls comment on my art,if you have the time,thanks!
April 24th, 2011
Just to let you know I will be making available for cards and prints etc,two very important paintings,of mine,one will feature birds,and be called,DLYG Bird song,which seems a weird tittle,but is in memory of Lacey Crawford,a young adult and close friend of my son,s,and his friend,who has started DONT LOSE YOUR GRIP,as a project to help those suffering mental distress,any profit I make will go to DLYG,if we sell lots of cards,prints,we can afford,a memorial tree at last for Lacey,missed by many and very talented musically...which brings me on to,my second painting which all profits from cards prints etc,will go to Hammy,and HORDASKEN,actually HAMMY should be in capitals as he is known by many for his musical ability and friendship to thousands,the painting is called, HAMMY HAVOC and the Fairy!